january.. i used to think i was the only birthday celebrant this month (and cory aquino) pero pagtagal ng pagtagal madami din pala. sobra. sa dami i think i have to resched my birthday celebration. daming parties almost every weekend lalo. this week theres three.

just last saturday matt and i were at topher's party. sobrang saya although i was the only girl and mama jeg (whos gay.. but we enjoyed the attention anyways hehehe). topher brought out all the contents of their freezer. inihaw namin from porkchops to hotdogs to even longganisa and marshmallows. tapos may naliligaw pa na sashimi (which we didnt cook nohh!) hehehe. sobrang lasing pa si mateo jusko.

im sorry to say this but im gonna have to stop posting my blogs here. to  avoid na din having indirect arguments with some "unmentionables". sayang  ive posted a lot na. pero, o well. its for the best.

as for me, im currently homebound today (para iwas gastos din hehe). just finished cleaning the house la kasi magawa. as for the other things naman.. ewan nakakapeste lang talaga may mga taong panira ng araw. pero ok lang pinipilit ko nalang talaga sya intindihin kaso minsan hindi ko na mapigil.. at least the other things in my life are okay. im not yet sure if mum's gonna  throw a party for my birthday kasabay kasi nya chinese new year. im so glad ive accomplished a lot the past year. ive also met a lot of new friends as in. im also planning on studying again (im planning on working while studying if the opportunity opens up sana). im also planning on travelling more this year. matt and i have been totally inseparable since we got back. sobrang natutuwa din ako kasi pansin ko hes making some efforts na to put direction in his life (which is a big step na knowing how he has been before). and im really proud of him.

and to "you-know-who", as ive told you again and again, hindi ko ginusto anuman nangyari between us. ok na sana tayo before as friends. sana someday you'll realize tama ang ginawa ko. at sana din someday maintindihan mo din ako. and im not expecting "that someday" to be soon although i wish it would.

it was my first time in dipolog. i was super nervous as the plane landed kasi all i saw in the window was trees! "umaygahd. baka totoo nga ang sinasabi ni matt ah.." tapos the airport was super small i had the feeling ma-culture shock nanaman ako just like in iligan.

but i was wrong. I FELL INLOVE WITH DIPOLOG!! i loved the place, the people, the stress free and simple life.. i even turned off my phones kasi sobrang nagenjoy talaga ako ang ayoko mafeel yung stress sa manila. and we were drunk almost every night drinking red horse lang. walang sanmig light.

matt picked me up from the airport with a yellow volkswagen beetle and i really wanted to collapse that vey moment. dream come true hehe.

i loved matt's family. madalas namin kasama mga cousins anf relatives nya and sobrang saya nila kasama. they were all super close and makulit. i was talking with matt's dad at our last night there. bonding kami. and dami nya kinwento sakin which made me appreciate and understand matt more. tapos he kept on telling everyone we were getting married this march and i was like, "seryoso ka? wala man lang proposal?" i even asked him again after a few days hindi pa din nya binabawi (akala ko kasi baka trip lang nya or whatever) pero, ewan bahala na. ive learne from the past na hindi na muna ako aasa til totoo na talaga.

and i fell so inlove with matt.. sobrang inalagaan and inasikaso nya ako. nagagalit sya pag tumutulong ako maglinis ayaw daw nya kasi prinsesa daw nya ako. sobrang lambing pa haaay.. cguro nagimprove relationship namin ng 50%

we took the superferry going back to manila. which took 2days. may dinala kasi kaming mga kotse. the beetle, a bmw z3, and another toyota car. at the end of our trip we were totally inseparable. nonstop inom pa din sa barko. natouch nga ako first time umayaw si matt uminom kasi samahan daw nya ako (i got seasick kasi at the last night).

hay back to reality nanaman. i miss sleeping beside matmat.. *sigh*

spent the last few hours of 2008 watching the 30 rock marathon (i really love this show super kulit nila) on star and playing sims to kill time.

then headed to greenbelt to meet up with jenibi and her sis, julie around 1am. ngayon ko lang narealize ngayon lang ako nagattempt umalis ng bahay ng new year. usually kasi i just stay at home (takot ako sa firecrackers major paranoid talaga ako). anyways, we headed to their friend, mary's house, somewhere nearby lang. daming tables and chairs sa kalye parang may fiesta and there we stayed. free food. free beer. free videoke all you want pa. jenibi was already drunk when we met up (they went to the countdown sa ayala kasi.. sabi nila super baduy daw. ginawang publicity stunt lang ni binay tsktsk). soobrang kulit at sabog ni jenibi tawa lang kami ng tawa. maya maya nawala andun na sa may videoke machine. at eto pa, she sang "true" by spandau ballet at nagback up singers ang mga tambay at mga nagiinuman sa kalye it was soo hilarious!

and we got home around 5am..

im having boy problems right now. theres two of them. kakairita lang new year na new year guguluhin ka. panira talaga. naisip ko, tangena this year titigilan ko na mga lalakeng yan sakit sila sa ulo. i better focus on my career nalang muna.. so thats my new years resolution. im really scared whats going to happen this year. kaloka.

my christmas was so unexpected this year.

first, i didnt expect to get caught up with the whole christmas rush, but i did. grandma gave me a list of last minute errands and i really hated the crowded malls. sobrang nakakapagod and nakakastress magshopping pag madaming tao! there i was 6pm on christmas eve running around glorietta (bumping everyone in sight) carrying three big boxes of mamon and ensaymada, hoping nobody i know saw me kasi super sabog na ako hehe.

second, i was in a, "oh-its-christmas-again-so-what" kinda mood. i was even telling my friend how its sad as you get older all your ninongs and ninangs forget you na unlike when you were a kid na ang dami mong gifts na nakukuha. but then a few hours before christmas, i passed by our christmas tree, my mum and brother was putting gifts, i looked at them, then looked away. then, "WHAT THE?!" with my eyes all big.. "bakit may purple vintage bike sa tabi ng christmas tree?!" i asked myself. my brother saw my reaction ayun tawa ng tawa. its purple. obviously its for me. i felt totally unworthy of it. hiya akuu. hehe. imagine that, at age 26 my mum gave me a bike for christmas..

but it doesnt end there. remember i was ranting a few weeks ago how ive had this subconscious longing for something gucci? well, my brother gave me a gucci bag. the exact print i wanted. i couldnt ask for more.

..i even had this feeling they were snooping around what ive been searching at ebay.. kasi how could they have known??

jenibi and her sister had noche buena with us. (i gave her a full sized mirror btw, and she almost cried hahahah. napaka vain kasi nya super nagustuhan nya). she bought red wine and we drank til 3am. she told me super saya naman daw sa house namin (naku ngayon lang nangyari ito) with all the gift giving and everyone was so happy daw. well its not really with the gifts we got. masaya lang cguro kami tahimik ang family namin ngayon unlike before. plus we've all grown up kaya kami kami na
nagbibigayan and bumibili ng gifts kaya madami na hehe.

i gave mum 2 framed copies of our family pic (one for her office, and one for the house). i remember kasi she has always been ranting why we dont have a family picture lagi may kulang blahblah. we have this almost complete na sana na family picture during my brothers graduation last october. phinotoshop ko nalang yung isang wala hehehe. luckily noone noticed.. and she liked it naman.

and everyone was happy.

nothing to do. so i decided to tinker with my friendster. added old and new photos. updated my profile.. and read my testimonials from years waaay back. kakatuwa. sobrang kulit ng mga friends ko (at pati na din ako hahah) kulit ng mga testi nila about me. cant believe talaga how they still manage to love me kahit na sobrang sakit ako sa ulo.

i really love my friends to death... *sigh*

i decided to take diet pills again. sobrang nadedepress ako i think i gained weight again. parang ang lapad ng muka ko.. grabe talaga ang hirap magpapayat pero ang dali tumaba. bakit baaa..?? i rhave to look good when i visit matt's family hihihi.

current temperature: its 26degrees here in manila!!

jusko napaka ginawin ko pa naman (just imagine my shivering face right now). cant believe its this colddd.. naku which made me remember i get these weird allergies on my arms and i think cold weather causes it. buti my lips arent chapped (yet). pero in the afternoon it can get a bit hot coz of the sun pero malamig naman yung hangin. ive actually felt the cold for weeks na (ako pa e sensitive ako sa lamig hehe) pero tonight has so far been the coldest.

anyhoo, i finally attempted to go christmas shopping for krissy's kids kanina. but i ended up buying something for myself again. wala akong nagustuhang toys hehe. i think i'll get them something for their new house nalang.

krissy has been paying up for months for this new house somewhere in calamba (no choice. its far pero i think she did a good thing coz at least now she has an asset). and she texted me na finally they can move in and im so happy for her. tagal din nya nagsacrifice bayaran yung monthly nya which almost took up half of her monthly salary.

i am soo bored. i really hate staying at home. asar ako sa mga tao dito kasi. sana may raket nalang ako ok lang sakin..